Days Like Today

Days like today don’t happen all the time,
I’m usually quite happy and really fine.
I enjoy the days where it doesn’t hurt to walk
When I’m in a good mood, and ok to talk.

But days like today, come very few.
When I hate being me and I could just start new.
Where I don’t have to worry about what’s going on
And feeling this ache doesn’t mean something’s wrong.

Today I am sad that I have Lupus,
And with and pray no one had to go through this.
That a cure was there for me to take a pill.
Instead of heading to more doctors for more crazy bills.

I know I shouldn’t worry about it at all.
But its hard when symptoms start staking ten feet tall.
When my hands swell to where I can’t even write.
Or when my legs hurt so much, I can’t sleep through the night.


When it hurts to see the sun shining down on me.
Or to walk to park just to try and sit under a tree.
To simply open a can of soda to get a simple drink.
Or when it hurts so bad, I can’t even think.

I know everyday is not always going to be like this.
I just wish the bad days, would be the ones I would miss.
When I just feel like sleeping and doing nothing more.
And shutting everyone out, and locking the door.

But the sun goes down and the moon shines bright.
While God helps me though another restless night.
And even though these days may come and come again.
I know He will be with me, always holding my hand.